Day 4
Note: If you’re asking why this started with day 4, I intentionally didn’t write anything regarding Day 1-3 because it’s full of drama.
Things changed, particularly my memories. His presence’s starting to fade away. His image’s blurring. Some of my memories of him are gone already. I never expect it to be this fast but the progress is just way out of the parameters of my expectations. Well, that’s a good news i guess but on the contrary, there’s something that’s suffering and i hope you guessed it right, my emotional and mental status. I don’t know, i suddenly feel so numb. I’ve been thinking for an hour what laughter really is, what should i feel when i’m smiling. Also, my head’s aching like hell the past days, tears fall from my eyes randomly. Something’s definitely wrong with me now. I might lose my sanity, my memories, and the me. If this continues, I might end up hanging myself.
